Friday, July 18, 2008
The skies were clear that night.
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Thursday night was spent with Vannessa under a bridge, a Japanese restuarant in esplanade, walking around until we were tired. The sky was very clear and the moon created beauty amidst the darkness.
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I'm sorry I make you unhappy. I really didn't mean to. I'm an asshole. I'm sorry. I'm sorry i can't understand your situations sometimes. I'm sorry you can't have someone better. I'm sorry i'm not good enough. I'm sorry i'm so insecure and i'm sorry my grades aren't good enough i promise to work harder i promise to be better. I hope you still love me.
Sunday would be an anniversary, can't wait.
Please make my heart flutter forever
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Mum's birthday is today. But i have work at 5pm i feel lousy because i can't attend her celebration. Seriously, i can't find a replacement. Irritating num. Dad isn't too happy. Sorry mum. Happy birthday though. love you.
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Today after rushing datelines and hanging out on the hanger of blk 52 i went to treat shianshun, joel and acy lunch. We then cabbed down to office to get my pay and we suddenly decided to go to Geylang to well... sightsee?
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We set a challenge. 1 point for each time a prostitute touches and holds you. 3 points for asking them how much. Score is as follows
Shianshun - 9 (i think)
Joel - 2 (pathetic)
Acy - 14 (power la he seriously)
Kit - 14 (don't ask)
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We walked around so many times uncles try to sell us indo ciggs. Pimps try to get us. Houses with red lanterns hung outside means that it has activities inside. We walked into gambling alleys to watch and looked at weird porno disc. I wonder why police dont do checks.
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The first time Chengyong got touched by prostitutes i kept laughing cause they dared me to walk infront and thought i would kenna end up he got pinched on the nipples =D It was damn funny his reaction all i laugh until i cry and sweat. Right after that i got touched =/ knn
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At one point it was so bad they crowded acy. I help and say "oi don't touch my boyfriend" then grabbed his arm and tried to leave. But they started getting all over me and pull my bag all almost ripped it apart they rather scary at times and the look they give you quite poor thing sometimes got the i want to get fucked really badly look i feel pity and you see old uncles all around asking them how much and banglahs going around having a good time and some trannys here and there one side indonesian one side china one side i dunno what but they gossip very loudly about us when we walk pass stuff like we look like students, they even recognise us when we walked pass again. I got whistled at thousand of times. I smile back at one and she went squealing happy.
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Anyway thats a little bit about the red light district. Not a really good place to be. I don't know why we felt a little more chilaka today so we ended up doing the things we did. Now come to think of it i feel kinda sad for them
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Everyday we should try something new. To make this day a little bit more special. Today i decided to go to school in very short shorts without underwear. Ultimate freedom.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Days go by.
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Its days like these that i listen to music and start thinking.
Its days like these that I get headaches from just pondering.
Its days like these that gets me wondering.
Why do we wake up in the morning tumbling?
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The days go by quicker and quicker as we grow up. Until now I still havent figured out why. An hour used to feel so long back then but an hour now isn't enough for anything at all. I wake up go to school go to work and everything seems to pass so quickly i'm afraid i won't have time to savour life as it passes me by. Because events may only happen once in a lifetime i want to be there to feel it and capture it in my heart and mind you know...
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Anyway im happy for Jerrold though he is being quite the ass quiting on us for someone else.
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I have so many things to talk about but for now.. i'm going to take my guitar and strum myself to sleep.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Secrets are very, very hard to keep.
All my secrets are exposed to my little brother. He finds out every little thing from every nook and cranny. But i'm not exactly the most discreet person in the world. I leave a lot of nonsense around my room. Its hard explaining stuff to him when he asks questions. EH BUT HE QUITE HOT STUFF LEH. My 13 year old brother is dating a girl older than him. I feel weird but proud in a way. But i think his taste leaves more to be desired.
Saturday was my suay day. Morning woke up soccer. At about 11.40am i got a call from Num at Heeren. They told me i was supposed to start work.. at 11. I forgot i thought it was five so i rushed back home with Jerrold all. At home big boss asked me to call him, got little short lecture and i promised it wouldnt happen again. Waited below my block for Jerrold and had a call from him after 10 minutes he told me he wasnt coming. So i rushed out to get cab. This white cab saw me stopped and drove away, i wont say why, no i didnt do anything stupid. I then waited damn long for another cab told driver to stop at polyclinic's ATM. Went there i humtum my number to get $50. I stood there waiting for my cash but it didnt come out. I looked in only to see my $50 note stuck in the machine. I tried to get it out but it shutted after awhile. I went to key in my number again and they deducted the $50 from my account although i didnt take it. I went to draw and it got stucked again. I took my nets card and faster kiap the fucking note out. Rushed back into cab flustered everything rushed down to heeren via pie. On the way massive jam running from bukit timah to lornie because something fell on the road so they closed a lane.
Had friendly today. Busted knee. Pain. But played okay. My stamina is still around.
This cool guy from the opposition came up to Jerrold and I after the match and asked us if we would like to join them sometime. He then offered to fetch us to simei but we ended up showering at some club and having dinner and going to parkway parade. He's quite cool la. He was a producer, owns 2 of his own albums. A lot of things la and he's very nice he treated us good chicken rice =)
I should be feeling happy and content, but i feel like a mess. Its been 2 days but it feels as though its been a long time.
I then realised what all this is about.
I will won't feel right if we don't see each other in awhile.
You're like a medication i have to take constantly.
I miss you.
