Saturday, May 03, 2008

Of that self autopsy on our hearts.

As we grow up. We understand ourselves better. Cause we go through so much shit. Of course parents can argue that they lead a tougher life. But they knew it was going to be hard, for us, we grew up based on dreams and ambitions, only to find ourselves tumbling into the vicious trap unknowingly layed there for us. I, don't know what to do. I thought i had the ideal life. But slowly, it gets more difficult, and out of a sudden, without realising it, you looked up and found out you are way too deep in. My eyes beckon me to keep them shut, yet i deny them the pleasure, this i know, is growing up.

Anyway, after clubbing at Play, cabbed home while returning Gilbert's stuff at Chevrons. He's 21. Happy 21 Gib.

Play was fucking fun. Now i know how ppl get away from they're troubles.

We were dancing on the dancefloor when i got a tap on my shoulder.

Cute girl who was about my height asks " Hi! Are you gay?"
Me "Well, No."
Girl "Oh! okay. (she smiles) my friend thinks you're cute"
Me " oh... okay" (goes back to dancing)
The 2 girls kept follwing behind me la.

Was dancing like mad, they have excellent music.

Then, someone went up to my friend and said that her guy friend was interested in me. Then my friend went to tell her im attached. Which im not la. lol it was damn fun. I wanna go there on thursday nights... we dominated dancefloor =)

Eh Eh, Amanda wanna go ? =D but we go waffles first okay. Next week im super free. Only working on thursday. and prob club after that if i do. Btw, love the sentosa pics ;)

Okay i'm dead tired. Sleep time.

Nevermind me
Nevermind me,
i'll just cast shadows on your wall









I'll upload the rest tmr

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Of that famliar feeling of saddness

Eee sial la. Today's soccer tryouts sucked. I ended up playing left back instead of left wing cause so many ppl wanted that position. And i can't play left back. It was damn fucked up.
Its either i go for another trial this friday, or im not in alr.

And people, don't get overconfident la. Num is STILL not THAT easy to get in. But i'll still give you the number.
And i decided not to recommend people alr. Cause its like, everyone asking for recommendation =/

Yesterday i was supposed to work. When i reached there they said i didn't have to. Barcelona losts btw =/

So met up with Hermy at Cathay. Then chilled at starbucks. It was free cone day and the queue was 2 storeys long. Then Serena and Jeanette came =) We had dinner at Plaza's Ajisen. And chilled at plaza's Starbucks.

Afterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, went to meet Adam. We talked will 3.15 am even though i had school the next day. We finished off by watching 2007's Victoria's Secret.

Tomorrowwwww, dunno do what, get Gilbert's IC, work till 10, then go club at PLAY after. Shit man its Uniform night. I want to say again ah, im not gay even though i go PLAY.





This is like... the queue


The people are right above Ben&Jerrys queueing

Monday, April 28, 2008

Of tiredness and indesicive transport options.

I skipped NgeeAnn Ambassador's games day cause i was seriously too tired. I figured i wouldn't have enough time for it anyway. Work and all.

I don't like some people in school already =/ i mean you can't possibly no everything in order to be so cocky right. I'm not stupid either. Use your sarcasm one more time and i'll slap your bitch face straight.

After lessons, Serena, Jeanette, Abel his friend and I went to Rail Mall to Eat to eat. They've got good noodles. They then had ice cream next door. Its been a long time since i was able to sit down and relax. I was freaking tired though.

Also, i dont know what mode of transportation to take home, i like missed the train then sat there, then went to take 99, then slept while listening to JustinTimberlake. I love sleeping in one corner of transports.

Got work tomorrow...... =.=" i think im like going to sleep alr.

Oh yah, Hi people, we at NewUrbanMale.com are hiring people. So if you think you're up to it then tell me and i'll recommend you in. Then probabilities of getting in are higher. Of course i must like you la. If you're a poser please don't bother. This offer is only valid for this week.

And ladies, if you're interested in working for us at Mooks then tell me too yeah =) Mooks is at Heeren, the sister brand of NUM. Thanks. Same, this week only.

Of I can never find the right words to say.

Well, the title says it all. No matter what happens it seems that we'll always end up in each other's lives somehow, somewhere. Be it at Orchard MRT station, school, i dont know, i just feel that we always get involved now and again. Though the softest voice in my head forced myself to refrain from talking to you in the most poetically pathetic attempt to get over you. After all this, when we finally start talking, questions do erradically pop into thought, wondering what went wrong back then, only to search long for the answer and arrive nowhere. Did the feelings just went on hold? Were other factors of more importance? I know the answers will never be known but the mere hope of knowing what happened is certainly worth more than just another page in my dairy. I don't know whether feelings would still be lingering around somewhere. Either way, i can never catergorise our ambiguous relationship, maybe we're just substitutes for each other, a lovely breath of fresh air after a long absence. Though, i think, i can really get used to it. I'd inhale again and again and again and again and again. Thats my 9 years Vannessa. You know i love you you dickcrap =)

And fuck la, I havent do my POA hmwk. Miss dunno what is going to mark me a zero again. fuckkkkkkkk how. its not that i dont wanna do it? but i can't .. i havent bought my textbook.

And im addicted to Justin Timberlake's Lovestoned.

Todays match was good. 4-2 we won =D

Wednesday is second trials for soccer. Sian la, i hate trials.

I love but hate school. I can't like.. describe. I seriously need to get a proper tan. Who wanna hit the beach?

I'm working Tuesday, thursday, friday and Sat this week. And who wanna like, have macdonalds with me for breakfast pls ask. If your lesson starts at 9 it'll be great.

And i really wanna watch iron man. I seriously can't do my poa work la. fuck it.
Goodnight people =D