Thursday, July 10, 2008
I'm sorry i get you frustrated all the time
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I'm sorry i get you frustrated all the time with my short answers and lousy explainations. I'm sorry i wrote all my unhappiness down into our book. I just couldn't take all the senarios playing in my head i had to release it all somewhere. I don't know why but i'm being rather selfish and immature. Its just... i thought you'd always be there for me too you know. Oh well, oh well...
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Anyway Chengyong and Shianshun covered today for me. We were late for movie so bought later tickets. Watched Hancock. I won't say anything though i do have comments i want to say. After the movie. Outside of the Cinema we talked.
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"Eh this door open leh. What movie they playing? Eh want to sneak in and watch anot?"
"What movie they playing?"
"Shit, dunno leh."
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3 of us stood at the door watching for a moment
"Ah go in watch la!"
"Eh dont want leh"
"I thought 6 plus you need to go back?"
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Acy stood at door. Kit pushes Acy in and blocks door. acy tries to get out. acy quits. acy goes to have a seat and watched the movie. Kit and shianshun wonder why door not moving. Opens. go in. sit too. watched movie.
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" Laugh "
" Laugh "
" Laugh uncontrollably "
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"yay we got free movie"
Alamak i sick
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I think i'm catching a flu.
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I'm now at kap having breakfast with Jerrold and he is lying down telling me how the glutinous maximus is the sexiest part of a women's body.
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I am sick I'm coughing I feel like throwing up ahaha i think its the weather.
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Sometimes when i'm alone i ask myself questions and try to solve puzzles. I then sometimes arrive at an ugly possibility. It makes me think differently of people.
And sometimes i'm afraid that it may just be very very true.
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Okay and Jerrold and i finally decided to start thinking about what cca to join. We bored la. I think i might quit num.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Forgotten Fairytales
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When you were younger i bet you had fantasies running through you mind every few seconds. Your little world where everything was perfect. You believe, you believed that in this life it might just turn out the way you want it to. You believe, you believed that everything might just be okay. You believe, you believed in your happy ending.
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But as you grow older, you see the world from a different perspective. Slowly, slowly but surely you start to change. You start to realise what an ugly world this is. How people are so selfish and disgusting inside. They tell you how to lead your life. They give you rules. They use you. They hate you. The world judges you. You are catergorised into a box you don't want to be in. You are labeled, and stamped on with a hot rod so you'll never forget, you'll never ever forget.
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So will you get your happy ending?
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You then find yourself scrambling for air. To get out of that tiny box they squeezed you in. To get your sweet sweet escape. Where you can surrender and be yourself, just yourself
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And in all this mess, in all this mess,
we are likely to be disconcerted by to the hiatus of thought
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In all this mess, in all this mess
I thank god we can lie down together and forget the world
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In all this mess,
I'll thank god for not taking away this fairytale
Sunday, July 06, 2008
I want to sleepppppppppppp!!!!!!!!!!!!!Alah fuck fuck fuck im so frustrated i want to sleep but i cannotttt. I woke up very early without much sleep the previous night to play football as usual after that went for lunch with acy and left for work after i got my stuff from home they target high high today for work but we managed to hit it im very much proud i only had instant noodles for dinner cause we were in a rush here and there overall it was quite fun but i used alot of energy i went to meet alot of people for a night of fun we were crazy dancing to random tunes. I was fun but Johnathan is leaving for Canada in 2 days time =/ im very much sad. Johnathan life of the party.I'm going to Vannessa's place tomorrow to wake her up with breakfast. And just now i went over to Adam's place to pass him something i was damn lazy so i went in only my boxers and shirt. On my way back i did a turn and stood right in front of a quarreling teenage couple they were saying stuff like " i dont even know the real you anymore". wahlao so hardcore serious i wish i'll never hear that from my someone. Anyway they saw my bottom and stopped talking to stare at me i blush and quickly walked away it was as free as free can get though =Dshit my eyes closing as im typing_______________________Okay i just came back from Vannessa's place. I think she's feeling better i happy =) super tired alr. Quite a number of ppl asking me out tonight but i really can't go i'm sorry i need sleep.
