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Friday, April 25, 2008

Of lonely bus rides and an interminable sleeping spell

I ... don't... like... being alone. After a rather fun day at school i went down to Orchard by myself again. Credits to my clique. I went down to collect my pay at Devonshire road. Then went back home straight. I feel so like, no life. I hate like.. going around on my own... listening to music, its such an emo moment.

Anyway i was freaking tired. To know why pls read previous posts. I was sooooo tired, i started having a headache. When i finally got onto 334, i slept, missed my stop and circled back to jurong polyclinic. Can you imagine what it was like, waking up somewhere you went passed alr. I just closed my eyes and listened to loud music. Damn it la. So i decided to just go get bubble tea and waffles. Oh i love waffles btw, note that on your palm Amanda =D and walked home. Dinner with mum and siblings. Was supposed to supper with Gwen and Gladys. Last minute postphoned. thank god, im dead tireddddd okay.

But its like, i can take it you know. I only feel sleepy when im doing nth. In school im like freaking hyper. And work too, even if i was tired before.

anyway, theres football tmr. so i guess im going to sleep. Eh Jerrold, wtf? you promised to call me by 11 every friday to tell me what time. Dota more important right.... forget to call your bff.

Jason asked me whether i wanna do walks. I'm like comtemplating.

Say hello to some of the ppl from class of T31. Abel, Kit the king, Serena, Sufei and Jeanette! In order of whose butt is further from left to right. It was Grey day. We actually decide on clothing colour. You should've seen us in all black okay, it was so demoralising

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Of my stalker and a free caramel macchiato

Did not sleep the night before. Watched Manchester v Barcelona. However, acy, joel and i dozed off at halftime. Infact, i didn't even get to watch the first half proper. I was constantly being called by my granddad. I ended up seriously pissed. He just wanted attention cause he couldn't sleep. I wanted to stay with him, i really did, but he can't keep yelling for me and shouting as though he's in pain but is not. It was seriously irritating. But i still love him. He always make me cry.

After school I could've gone to eat ice cream with Jeanette and Serena but i had work =/ but work was okay cause i had a special visitor =D Yes Amanda thanks for the Caramel macchiato! Its my favourite starbucks coffee btw, we should've like shared a little more tgt, cause i seriously couldn't finish. And also thanks for doing up my nametag!

And i have a stalker. Unfortunately, its a guy. He followed me from Marina when he saw me, to the NUM outlet where i work. He stayed in and looked at stuff for super long. He kept giving me a certain stare. He then sat outside my outlet and continued giving me looks when i walked to the other outet to get stuff. After super long i decided to go to THAT toilet. I like, silently and skillfully pounce through the shadows by the sides to ensure he didn't see me going to THAT toilet. After i was done and washing my hands, he came in looking at me from behind. It was damn fucking scary. He walked into the cubicle and start doing something, i didnt bother to see, but he did not close the door. I think he wanted me to go in. But i like quickly walked out. I think he knew that it was rejection. I didn't see him after. I think i'm some sort of a gay magnet.

Just this after noon after school i used the toilet at clementi station. Peeing peeing, this guy walked in and of all other urinals decided to use the one beside me, he was about 30s? 40s? He started peeing and then turned his head to look at my dick. COME ON LA. WTF ALL THESE IN A FEW DAYS? I quickly finished and washed my hand. The guy was behind, so i looked at the mirror and saw him looking at me, he raised his eyebrows at me. whatttt theee fuckkkk larhhhh.

Eh, but i never thought i would have a male stalker. LOL

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Of Gay activities in Citylink's toilets during work and stuff

FUCK. I'm a victim.

Today, schooled. I've finally seen the morning crowd at Jurong east station. I didn't even know wtf to think.

I reached school on time though =D

After school I ended up not meeting vannessa. What a waste of my time, cause i brought my num stuff alr, so i had nth to do =/ i was deeply dissappointed.
Nvm, went down to num office and num Main, walked here and there to get procedures done. I can't say what i was doing. Its private.
And thennnn, went down to work. I reached early and helped, and then managed the store by myself, omg im so proud, for one whole hour before Travis came. Then we went insane again. We always do. I bet Matthew is fucking jealous.

So! The main thing was this, work was as per norm. Then i had to go to the washroom. I walked in, i saw this angmoh fellow at the corner cubicle adjusting his penis. I thought he was adjusting. I'd say his about in his 30s? So i thought it was safe to use the urinal, no problem what, thought he was straight. Motherfucker, i then realised he was looking at MY penis and wanking his own! WTF MAN. I realised he was staring at my bellow. When i looked at him he looked away. Wtf la.shit shit shit
I then went back and found out that it might've been the same fellow who stared at Travis' dick also. Its damn scary okay, its like he's stalking numboys.
And then came Lutfi's part of the story. Lutfi went to the toilet after some time. He used the cubicle, not the urinal, to pee. So he's standing there and suddenly a head popped out from over the other cubicle. It was the same angmoh fellow! He placed his chin onto his rested arms on the top of the partition and asked Lutfi whether he wants to let him suck his dick. Lutfi was absolutely stunned i tell you. He shouted no and i forgot what else he did. He left quickly. Then came to my outlet to tell us the story. Its really damn fucked up. And this wasn't Lutfi's first encounter.
Quite sometime ago the partition between the cubicles were rather high. Meaning theres quite alot of space from the floor to the partition. So at that time Lutfi was taking a dump. He knew there was someone in the next cubicle. The person beside kept tapped a few times, quick taps. And suddenly sticked his hand from under the partition cause he wanted to wank Lutfi. LOL. Lutfi faster cleaned himself while the hand was still there and went out, started banging on the other cubicle's door. You see, the thing about that toilet was that gay men would actually go there to randomly wank each other with the partition in between. So yeah, the guy didnt come out even after a long time. So lutfi went back to work.
Interesting huh. Anyway i'll be having lunch with Matt and Trav tmr at Canteen 2 i think. And after school probably catch a movie with clique

And never once in my life again, did i actually think, some other guy would wank while looking at my penis. Thats really something to remember, and yet, forget.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Of Sunday football and my thoughts.
Note, please wait for my blog song to start

Today was an emotional turmoil. Like a battle raging within my head.
Cause i listened to sappy emo songs while the sky was turning grey =/ then my mind started to wonder. Granddad has been diagnosed by the doctor after having a fever. He has urine infection. Even though he's alr so old he still has to suffer. I feel damn lousy. I listened to this song and illustrated in my mind our pictures tgt, passing one by one.
I silently wiped my tears off before they fell. I didn't really have the mood to play football. I kept quiet through the whole trip. But after i came down i had to go fake happy.

Training to me today was quite a waste of time. Coach expects alot from me. New players quite lazy, Joel and i did alot of work. Ended up on the brink of fainting. We slacked at East Point's KFC. Talked. Next week is a friendly. Gotta performance.
Then back home. Yeah that was my day. Meeting Vannessa after class tmr. And then go to work again. Sigh. Im so so tired. Physically and Mentally.

Also, my family is close to being dysfunctional. We never talk, we never go out. We dont even know what each of us are thinking. Everytime we commune we end up quarreling. Every single time. I'm starting to hate my family. Maybe its just a phase. I dont know.

I'm having money issues also. I don't know why

Never once in my life, i thought i'll be in this situation.

Of the tremendous pressures and stresses of coping with school, work, interests, friends and family.

No this is not the ideal lifestyle i'm looking for. My body is pushed way beyond its limits already. As i'm typing my eyes are slowly shutting. Why? I don't know either. But it seems that i'm not able to handle my current lifestyle. Which goes something like this on a weekday. Wake up early to go to school. Stay in school for lectures, tutorials, socialising, and more stuff to come like ccas and interests. After school, I go to work at citylink, which involves hours of movement, standing and talking. Not everyday of course. I'll probably reach home at about 12am and sleep at 1am or 2am. And then i wake up again for another school day. And on Saturdays, i wake up early to go for football. Reach home at about 2 or 3, and then i'll have to leave for work at 4, cause i always work saturday evenings. Then i'll work till late. And blog when i get back. Next day, Sunday, i'll get alittle more sleep, but still have to go football at 1 and it lasts till 6 or 7, dinner, and then home. This is my life. Its a vicious cycle i cannot break out of. Oh, i forgot to add the little devil in my room. My brother, is currently experiencing puberty, so i have to come home from work dead tired to listen to his nonsense. We just had a big argument just now and it woke up the entire house. Everyone came into my room. This is the kind of shit i have to take after a long day. Its not that i wanna be melodramatic. But its seriously quite alot to handle. Also i dont have time for family anymore. To add on, i was sick this week. Theres only so much a person can take. I know this matter may seem small to some people, but you should really put yourself in my shoes and see how much people expect from you. Also, i can't pay attention in class, i really dont know why, Its damn scary. I know some of you would say, quit your job la. But please let me ask you, would you quit being a NumBoy?
I need to talk to someone =/ who wanna go drinking?

Anyway, i love working with Travis. He is such a fucker, we constantly sabo each other by placing sensor tags into each other's pockets or bags secretly. Then we'll get shocked when we walk out the door. The asshole poured like 10 into my pouch okay, nei nei.

Oh and i wanna work with matthew also.

This is Travis

We're working together on Monday again! =D

My schedule for next week is Monday, thursday and Saturday. Visit me if oyu have the time yeah. You can make my time pass faster.

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