Saturday, August 16, 2008
Sorry
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I constantly find myself apologising now and then. I'd look back and always wonder why. Yes you have excellent reasons to be disappointed at me. I would be too. You know maybe ... maybe this isn't cut out to be all it seems to be... Maybe i'm making you much more unhappy.
Maybe i don't deserve you. Yes thats right, I don't.
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It's been a week since granddad passed. I find myself stoning infront of my laptop thinking about him. Everthing is flushing back into my head.
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All this stress is getting to me. Waking up early the previous morning to head down to school in order to study alone in the atrium. Passing of granddad. Being a disappointment. Work. Exams. sleeping late nightly.
Funny how everything that made you happy could turn around in just a week.
I don't think i can handle everything.
Like last night i just collasped on the room floor the moment i got home.
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I need to go down for a cigarette.
