Kit
I love pictures in black and white
it makes everything look less complicated than it is
it shadows all in explicit clarity
and erupts in absolute beauty
Of Sunday football and my thoughts. Note, please wait for my blog song to start
Today was an emotional turmoil. Like a battle raging within my head. Cause i listened to sappy emo songs while the sky was turning grey =/ then my mind started to wonder. Granddad has been diagnosed by the doctor after having a fever. He has urine infection. Even though he's alr so old he still has to suffer. I feel damn lousy. I listened to this song and illustrated in my mind our pictures tgt, passing one by one. I silently wiped my tears off before they fell. I didn't really have the mood to play football. I kept quiet through the whole trip. But after i came down i had to go fake happy.
Training to me today was quite a waste of time. Coach expects alot from me. New players quite lazy, Joel and i did alot of work. Ended up on the brink of fainting. We slacked at East Point's KFC. Talked. Next week is a friendly. Gotta performance. Then back home. Yeah that was my day. Meeting Vannessa after class tmr. And then go to work again. Sigh. Im so so tired. Physically and Mentally.
Also, my family is close to being dysfunctional. We never talk, we never go out. We dont even know what each of us are thinking. Everytime we commune we end up quarreling. Every single time. I'm starting to hate my family. Maybe its just a phase. I dont know.
I'm having money issues also. I don't know why
Never once in my life, i thought i'll be in this situation.
