Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Today is officially one of the worst/unluckiest days of my life.
Seriously, so drama.

I woke up at 2 plus today only to find out i have 2 smses from NgeeAnn Poly saying that my Acceptance Offer to my course has lapsed. Incase you didnt know, it means that they cancelled their offer to let me into their school. This was because i have not paid the school fees. They also said that any payment made after 24th march would not be taking into consideration. Today is the 25th. I had a nervous break down. I really didn't know i had to pay yesterday. So i rushed down to NgeeAnn and talked to the Admissions office. They asked me to deposit the cheque, write in an email and everything should be fine. But still cant confirm whether i can go in. After i deposited the cheque, the computer printed on my payment slip "Too late for clearance". I hope the lady at NgeeAnn was right. I've been worrying the whole day. Its like having an autopsy while im still alive. I'm so deeply covered in shit i can't breathe. My parents are so pissed at me. If I can't go in i'll be wasting a year. The situation is extremely grave. Im currently suffering from interminable depression. I can't imagine not getting in. Its very worrying. I can't use words to describe how i feel. The thing is i can't do anything about it. I feel so stupid. How can i not know to pay by yesterday. I do hope they give me a chance. Dad was there too, he was supposed to be home packing for his trip to Thailand with mum

I can imagine a few outcomes from this scenario. I could be laughing at this day, or crying in a few days time. I wish for all these dramas to end. I really do, my whole life has been a picture story.

Anyway went to watch a movie after with Acy and jerrold. I took it as a chance to channel my thoughts somewhere else but to no avail. I only laughed once during the movie. We watched Be Kind Rewind. I also went down to NUM HQ to hand up something i owed.

After that another unlucky thing happened in the MRT on the way back. We looked down and saw a stream of water leading to my shoe. It trailed to this man's feet. Initially i thought it was the air con leaking. A few seconds later after the man repositioned his foot, i realised the puddle starting inbetween his feet. I then noticed his pants were wet. Can you imagine the look on our faces. I immediately moved and we tried to hold our laughter, Jerrold and Acy moved futher away while i stood around there and even took a photo. I hate myself, i later felt guilty as hell. So did the rest. I decided not to post the picture and deleted it. He tried to spread the liquid around with his feet. He must be feeling so embarressed. He looks like he's 60 plus? thats why i feel like crap. Maybe he can't control, maybe he's drunk/depressed like me. I feel sad for him.

Thats my day.

I feel super sad. I dont know if i can sleep. I got work tmr.
Oh yah ppl, if you wanna look for me during work sms first alright. To make sure im around. And if you wanna buy anything from NUM come to my outlet pls. Im going to refrain from putting a smiley face because im really not in a good mood. Even sex won't cheer me up. Wait, hold that thought.

Goodbye and thanks for reading.